|Last year he started driving now this year he will be a senior|
I am having a very hard time right now emotionally. All of a sudden it hit me that Gage my 17 year old (my oldest) is going to be a senior this year and we are talking about college right now. This is hurting more than ever, it's like I just woke up and realized he is almost all grown up. I am praying to God he picks a college that he will live at home and commute to. I feel so selfish for thinking that, but I will support whatever he wants to do. The thought of him leaving already is killing me. My heart is breaking and I don't know if I am ready for this. Time has just flew by :(
I am looking forward so much to him working with me this summer, our 2 week vacation together and so much more, but why am I already thinking of the future and how bad it's going to hurt. Instead I need to find a way to be excited for him, knowing that he is now going to be going to college and pursuing his dreams.
One important thing that I am so thankful for is the amount of vacations that I have taken with my husband and two sons. We have taken more vacations then most people take in a life time and this is something I have always ALWAYS looked forward to, building memories with my family and giving them as much as I can with traveling and experiencing so many things.
I have to be strong and know that everything will be fine, but it's just hurting me right now and I have to tell myself not to think about it.
|waiting at the Pittsburgh Airport last year to go to Fort Lauderdale|
|Pepe's Pizzeria in New Haven, CT last year|
|pizza place in Florida last year|